I've come so far in the past 4 years and am so happy with where I am in my life, but sometimes it still hurts. I never know when the pain and the tears will come, but then all the sudden they are there. It hit me this morning that it was his birthday and the tears started to flow. It's been awhile since I've cried about it, so I guess it's just time for it to all come out. It makes me think of the song that says "when you cry, you're just letting go of heartache deep inside, tomorrow they'll be sunshining skies and love close by, you're not alone". I like to think that i'm just letting go of the heartache and then I'll be ok.I truly feel Heavenly Father's hand in my life and know that he is the one who has gotten me through the toughest times in the past 4 years and that it was him that blessed me to find Matt. I also feel extremely blessed to have such an open adoption and to be able to see how he is doing with my own eyes and to give him hugs (that is if I can get him to stop trying to wrestle me for a minute). I was sharing with my sister Celeste how I was feeling this morning and then went to read her blog and found this - http://boandco.blogspot.com/2008/09/4th-anniversary.html
Talk about touching my heart! I love my sister and in fact I love my whole family for the love and support they've given me over the past 4 years.
Happy 4th Birthday Connor!
10 comments:
~Tears~ - wow!! Emily you are an amazing person - and your sister' post was great ~tears again~!! Conner is a doll and I can't believe it's been 4 years, he is such a cutie!!
Dang,He is so cute! Time really has flown! I do believe he somewhat resembles your brothers.
If he is that cute just think how cute the rest of your kids will be!
Love ya!
My bad! The last comment was really from me, not my husband! He just didn't log out of his acct.
Love ya still!
Em-
Thanks for the great post, and the great example to me. Connor is such a cutie and each and every birthday I hope you remember that you gave him the best birthday gift he could have ever asked for, a forever family. You are such an awesome example. I'm thrilled Heavenly Father put us in the same family....although I don't remember feeling that way when we were growing up and you were sitting on me and sneezing on me....:) I'm so glad you have felt the Lord's love in your life and that he blessed you with such a great hubby. You and Matt make a great couple and I'm so glad you have each other :)
Em,
Sorry you had a hard day! He is such an adorable boy. You did the right thing. He's in a good place and it is awesome that you still get to be a part of his life! I hope today is a little brighter and happier for you.
Take care,
Alisha
I feel of your strength Emily! Thank you!!
He is so lucky to have both you and his adoptive mother in his life! (((hugs)))
What a neat post. And how awesome is your sweet sister! He's a beautiful child.
Maren
Wow, 4 years.
I remember that time so clearly. Tommy and I were praying for you so intensely. I couldn't begin to wrap my brain around the hurt you felt and how strong you were at that time.
What a difference a few years make.
You are awesome!
He is still a little cutie!!!!
Wow Emily- what a tough choice you had to make. I admire you. He is adorable! Thats great you are able to see him. Doesnt time fly? He is already 4? Hard for me to believe I have a 5 year old. We are starting to get old! :)
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