Sunday, September 28, 2008

Party Time

On Saturday I was able to meet up with Connor, his brother, and his mom at the Olive Garden to celebrate his birthday. Connor drew a lot of attention on our way back to our table carrying his present that was just about as big as he was!
I had missed Taylor's birthday in June, so I was able to give him his present at the same time.
Connor showing me the airplane launcher I got him.
Connor loved his motorcycle jacket and began fighting all the "bad guys". Luckily we were back in the corner of the restaurant and were able to just let him play. He was quite stylin with his leather jacket, shorts and cowboy boots :) And he definetely has the biker attitude down.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Could it really be 4 years?!?!

I can't believe that Connor is 4 today! It feels like it was just yesterday I was holding him in my arms at the hospital and yet it feels like an eternity ago. I've come so far in the past 4 years and am so happy with where I am in my life, but sometimes it still hurts. I never know when the pain and the tears will come, but then all the sudden they are there. It hit me this morning that it was his birthday and the tears started to flow. It's been awhile since I've cried about it, so I guess it's just time for it to all come out. It makes me think of the song that says "when you cry, you're just letting go of heartache deep inside, tomorrow they'll be sunshining skies and love close by, you're not alone". I like to think that i'm just letting go of the heartache and then I'll be ok.

I truly feel Heavenly Father's hand in my life and know that he is the one who has gotten me through the toughest times in the past 4 years and that it was him that blessed me to find Matt. I also feel extremely blessed to have such an open adoption and to be able to see how he is doing with my own eyes and to give him hugs (that is if I can get him to stop trying to wrestle me for a minute). I was sharing with my sister Celeste how I was feeling this morning and then went to read her blog and found this -

Talk about touching my heart! I love my sister and in fact I love my whole family for the love and support they've given me over the past 4 years.
Happy 4th Birthday Connor!